I wasn't prepared for this, mom

by Cindy

I lost my mother to complications of inflammatory breast cancer on April 23, 2014 which resulted in end stage renal failure. This has been very heartbreaking for me and my family and I feel that I am by myself. my heart breaks every morning knowing that she is not here anymore. I wasn't ready because everything happened so fast and neither was anyone else for that matter. I have my mom's ashes with me in the home that we shared and I will never part with them. I am beyond devastated right now. I miss her terribly. I ask God for a sign everyday to let me know that she is still watching over me and my family and I am waiting patiently for that sign.

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Sep 28, 2014
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by: Jennie

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Sep 16, 2014
I wasn´t prepared for this, mom
by: Jane

Dear Cindy, I am so sorry for loosing your mother. This grieving is the worsest pain you can get in your life. In this terrible time you not able to see or to recognize the signs from your mother. But day by day when you get a little bit of peace in your heart, you will see and feel the signs. She is right on your side and in your heart. I have get a few signs from my mom, but to tell you the truth, I don´t satisfied from the signs. I still would like do have my mom back, happy and of course all healthy. I know that sounds not very thankful, but it is the truth. If I Shell write you the signs from my mom, let me know. Cindy just live your life one day after the other. Don´t plan. Just live im now and not thinking about tomorrow. be sure, your mom is watching over you and your family. Your love has bind you together for ever. May God comfort you. Much love Jane

Sep 16, 2014
Looking for a sign since my mom died.
by: Doreen UK

Cindy I am so sorry for your loss of your Mom so quickly from complications to breast cancer. It is so hard to comprehend that the person who gave us life and nurtured us has now gone and all that is left in the physical life is her ashes. Hard to understand that once those ashes were a person who we talked to and had a relationship with. This is the cruelty and hardship of death.
What is comforting to know is the body is the shell that died and turned to ashes but not the Spirit which is the Breath of Life. This goes back to God who gave it and in the life to come your mother's body will be resurrected and God will put her Spirit back into that body and she will again become a living being.
I got comforting signs from losing my husband. Many dreams and signs to his niece and also I saw white feather's everywhere. I still do see white feathers. This is a sign of comfort. I also had a beautiful white bird come to me during his diagnosis. cancer journey, and after he died 2yrs.4 months ago. That bird stayed for just over 4yrs. He is gone now and I miss him. But his job is done in comforting us and making sure we were O.K. This is how God cares for us. God doesn't like death. Never in His plan. But he died in our place so we can have eternal life. Keep trusting. Keep believing. Keep Hoping.

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