I watched my best friend die

by Alex kandos

My best friend and I spent every single day together. Every day. We were walking across a train track crossing at the right time when the sign said it was ok and everything. My best friends shoelace got caught in the track. We couldn't get it out or take his shoe off and by this point we were panicking. We heard the train before we saw it. I started screaming. The train was about 100 metres away, we were still trying to get his shoelace out. 50 metres, the train was trying to slow down but you can't bring a train to a full stop in that amount of time. He yelled at me to get off the track. I said no but he said do it for him. I ran of. By this point we both knew it was too late, I was hysterical. He said he loved me and he'll always be with me. The train was very close now, there were a few seconds left. We locked gazes and I watched my best friend get run over by a train. We were looking at each other until the end and I still remember his face as clear as if it were yesterday. I was shocked and just stood there as the train ran over him. When it passed i saw what remained if his body. The driver of the train called emergency crews and since then I have lived in a deep dark hole and haven't let anyone in. We had been best friends since we were four. I have nobody else. I miss him so much and now, after his death I realise that we loved each other. We just hadn't known it. I haven't got any friends that are girls like me, or any friends at all. I spend all of my time looking through photos and reliving memories. He was my everything. We were both turning 17 when this occurred.

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May 03, 2013
thinking of you
by: Texas tech fan

Just wanted you to know I said a prayer for you today. That experience must've been unspeakably terrifying for you. And you probably felt incredibly helpless. You did all you could to help your friend. He was blessed to know someone like you. Take good care of yourself. Go to counseling. I go to my local hospice. They do free counseling and have support groups,etc. They are wonderful caring and really understand tragedy and grief. Blessings always.....

Apr 25, 2013
I watched my best friend die
by: Doreen U.K.

Alex I am sorry for your loss of your best friend. This was such a tragic and horrible experience that it will take a long time to get out of your system. You should try and see a counsellor/therapist to help you through this type of death as it does affect how you will grieve.
My nephew was 30yrs. old when he suffered with depression for some years and his medication caused suicidal side effects. He threw himself in front of an express train 6yrs. ago. My sister went Mad with grief and couldn't function she had to have a counsellor come to her home to counsel her. She will have the scars forever. BUT. She is in a place of recovery and helping others in grief. But it was such a horrible time for our family. The network had to use thermal imaging to track the body parts and she couldn't have an open casket and so her grief was great. She had to read the report at the inquest and it was so horrific she couldn't share this with anyone. She was traumatised and will have this memory forever. Your friends body would have gone into shock and he wouldn't have felt anything. He would have died instantly. But nevertheless painful to know and see how someone died before your eyes. you will be traumatised. I know what you are going through in your tragedy. I share this with you to offer you comfort and support as you would feel so alone and feel no one would understand how you feel. It will get easier in time to cope with this tragedy but it is going to take a long time. If you have good supportive family and friends it helps the grief journey so much. May God comfort you in your sorrow and grief and help you find your way back in life.

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