I will Always Love You, But I am o.k

My Love,

It has been two Falls.

It has been One Winter.

It has been two Springs

And two Summers without you.

Every 6th of the month makes another month that I have survived without you.

But I am tired of surviving, I want to live. And I am trying so very hard to make a life for myself and our son.

The Holidays are right around the corner and last year they were brutal. I am no longer your wife yet I still consider myself to be so. I am single, if that means alone, I am.

You are always with me. You are the smile that comes over me as I think of the times that we had. And I thank you for giving them to me. I am so grateful for the life we had.
I am no longer mad at you for going and dying on me. It was not your choice it was some plan that I did not understand. And all the sayings that told me why still make no sense.

But here I am honey trying to make a new life. Some days almost feel "Normal" and there is light at the end of this long dark grief tunnel. Our favorite holiday Halloween is coming up and thankfully I feel a spark of excitement. Something that I have not truly felt since you died. This is not good bye. This is letting you know that I am o.k and I hope that you are too in the paradise that you now reside in. Your healthy, handsome and speak and walk freely from place to place at will.

I will always miss you and always be your wife forever for all of eternity
Love You Still
Your Wife Always...