I will Always Love You, But I am o.k

My Love,

It has been two Falls.

It has been One Winter.

It has been two Springs

And two Summers without you.

Every 6th of the month makes another month that I have survived without you.

But I am tired of surviving, I want to live. And I am trying so very hard to make a life for myself and our son.

The Holidays are right around the corner and last year they were brutal. I am no longer your wife yet I still consider myself to be so. I am single, if that means alone, I am.

You are always with me. You are the smile that comes over me as I think of the times that we had. And I thank you for giving them to me. I am so grateful for the life we had.
I am no longer mad at you for going and dying on me. It was not your choice it was some plan that I did not understand. And all the sayings that told me why still make no sense.

But here I am honey trying to make a new life. Some days almost feel "Normal" and there is light at the end of this long dark grief tunnel. Our favorite holiday Halloween is coming up and thankfully I feel a spark of excitement. Something that I have not truly felt since you died. This is not good bye. This is letting you know that I am o.k and I hope that you are too in the paradise that you now reside in. Your healthy, handsome and speak and walk freely from place to place at will.

I will always miss you and always be your wife forever for all of eternity
Love You Still
Your Wife Always...

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Oct 03, 2011
I will always love you but I am ok.
by: Mari

I am sorry that your husband would not stop smoking. My heart goes out to you.
My husband did not smoke but he refused to get medical care until it was too late. It took a lot to get him to finally go to my doctor but he had a heart attack shortly after that. Then he had stents put in his heart but only lived a few days after that. I realize he probably would have been sick anyway as my doctor said he ''had a lot going on.'' But he might have at least felt better with earlier care.Maybe I would have had a little more time with him.
It wasn't enough time. The grandchildren still miss him and I do too.I am okay though.I miss the closeness and the things he would say to make me laugh. I miss the hugs too. So as the 2 year mark approaches I realize that God has been with me and a lot of loving support.I know that if if he were here we would have been enroute to Crescent City to see the new great niece. My husband adored each baby and they seem to just keep on coming Life goes on.We can make it.I find myself able to laugh again and greatful for God's love and provision.

Oct 03, 2011
Going forward
by: Anonymous

Your writing has given me some hope. I am approaching the year mark and find myself sliding backwards. I too am trying to make a life for my son and myself. Everyday has its challenges. My dread is this month, my husband died on the 30th. I see that surviving is not easy but can be done.

Oct 02, 2011
I will always love you, but I am ok
by: jules

You have voiced my feelings, it will be 2 years in November since my darling passed. I am making the best of the life I have, I have friends, I have fun, I fill my life - maybe one day I will find someone else to love - but I don't know if I will love that person in the same way, with the same passion.
It is all we can do, make the best of what we have - live, love and laugh!
Always, every day, one step, one breath
take care
jules

Oct 02, 2011
I will always love you, but I am ok
by: jules

You have voiced my feelings, it will be 2 years in November since my darling passed. I am making the best of the life I have, I have friends, I have fun, I fill my life - maybe one day I will find someone else to love - but I don't know if I will love that person in the same way, with the same passion.
It is all we can do, make the best of what we have - live, love and laugh!
Always, every day, one step, one breath
take care
jules

Oct 02, 2011
I will always love you , but am okay
by: Mari

I am glad you are doing okay.God helps us make it through.It is one of the most difficult things we can endure. The grieving process is not easy but we somehow call on God given inner strength to get through.
Next month on the 22 will be 2 years since my husband went to be with the Lord.I imagine my birthday on Nov 20 will be a bit difficult as my husband had plans for me but was too sick and he passed away on the 22nt.
I am coming along well. I work part time outside the home and manage the complex here. I truly feel that the kindness of my boss and my family have been a blessing plus the great grandbaby Aubree.I am blessed also to have my parents and my 18 grandchildren and 5 children.
I truly miss my husband and but am confident he is with the Lord, not suffering anymore.I can enjoy life again and go on.I am thankful I had my husband in my life and that he loved me.I always feel that love he had for me.It is never easy to go through these things but God is always there for us.

Oct 01, 2011
Glad you're ok
by: M Mack

Hope,

I have been on this site faithfully since July 24, 2010. I have read and felt each and every painful word written. The words on a page are powerful. It has been helpful to heal with so
many others in grief. Writing, reading each day gives me hope a little at a time. The progress is there as you can see from older posts.
I believe in soulmates, and like me, you had a soulmate. No matter who comes along, what little laughter we experience, we will never loose what was - although we are moving forward in time, we still have the scar from loosing a soulmate. I am hopeful for all of us to work through this life. We do need to let go, allow our loved ones to enjoy eternity and not painfully watch in silence as we mourn our loss.

Yes, I'm doing just fine, like you however, something is always there, nagging my heart and mind, pulling me in the direction of missing my love. I don't think it will ever go away.
I also believe they are here along side us whenever we need them. Let's continue to make them proud, realize the
struggles we have overcome and just live in the moment of every holiday.....even Halloween. Sending my best and prayers for continued success in our paths.

Sep 30, 2011
We'll Always Be Their Wife
by: Anonymous

I hope that I will feel like this sometime soon. I'm still very much in the angry stage. I used to beg him to stop smoking......he just wouldn't listen. In the end it was the smoking that killed him.....sealed his fate.
I will always love my husband - I miss him so much. I am so afraid of moving forward. I think about how my life has been in the past year and I know my worst day with him was joy considered to the life I am living now.
I'm trying. I have to keep trying.
Thank you.

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