I wish you were here
My grandma passed away 8 years ago and every day when I think of her I miss her and wish she was here. Tomorrow is my 16th birthday and I really wish she could be here to celebrate with me and see get my driving license. I know she would be proud of me.
From time to time I would cry myself to sleep missing her and how life would be different if she was here but for some reason tonight I feel really depressed and sad that she wont be here tomorrow to say happy birthday. I keep cry and every rememberance of her just makes me cry and wish she was here. I love her so much and remember every moment I spent with her and I really wish I can speak with her.
Before she died I was the last person she talked to but I never got the chance to actually say bye. I remember the last time I saw her in hospital and when I found out she passed. I would do anything to see her right now.
Idk why I'm so upset, instead of feeling excited that my birthday is tomorrow I feel sad depressed and empty. I really want to enjoy my birthday but I feel that I can't because she's not here. Idk what and how to make the pain at ease I just really miss her and write this just makes me want to cry even more and more.
To my Grandma:
I love you soooo much and every day especially now I wish you were here with me. Maybe if you were things would've been different we wouldn't have to have gone through so much pain of living without you.
I know ur watching from above but I really want to see you hug you and want you to say happy birthday to me.<3
I love u