I'll see you.
My dad died a little over 4 months ago. The day after fathers day at 1 am. He had diabetes Nd never exercised or ate well so after30 years of that it took a toll on his body and his heart gave up after him. They had given him a ton or surgeries before he passed away. They even took his left leg from gangrene. Him and I were never close. He was never a "dad dad" always watched a lot of TV. never really apt time with us (his 7children) I thought I would be ok when he left and I'm coming to find I loved him more than I thought. He is my dad. We are connected As a bond. He did his best for the family and I applaud him for that. I didn't know how this process would be. I am 23 and have never lost anyone. It literally feels like I'm going crazy at times. I didn't k ow it , but I've been ignoring how I've been feeling about my dad and in turn acting out in a different way towards others. Now I am at the point of my grieving process where I see that I need to give in to the grief, if you will. I'm just gonna go easy on myself and cry when I need to. I am proud of myself through the process so far. Can't wait to see what hindsight will show me.