After 4,5 years with my GF im alone. The whole thing happen the 4 of February 2012. Its its June soon, and I'm still fighting to get her back.
Im 39 years old, she is 33. We where togheather for 4,5 year. In the start I was a bit sceptic, I had been single for 7 years before she turned up in my life. And she also told me about other realationships she had been in, that did not work. She also told me that she had a serious eating disorder, that was taking a big space in her life.
But I liked her, and I fall in love with her. Then we became a couple. We moved in togheather in 2008 in my little apartment. We bought our own apartment in 2010. So now we official was man and wife in a way. We was not engaged. But suddenly after a trip out on town, she talked to a friend of mine, and he was blabbering that I had a lot of internet GF, facebook etc. That was not true, but this friend has this habbit getting involved in other realationships. Putting his nose in everything. She came back home and was furious. She said she needed a break. 10 days later it was over. She left me. She has moved out of the apartment. And Im trying to live there, but thats imposible, because its to many memories, to much stuff in the walls.
We was planning our future togheater, we where planning children togheater.
Her reason for the breakup is:
Bad sexlife in the end
Lost her feelings
Her eating disorder was taking so much space in her life that she could not be with anyone.
Thats her reasons.
I will comment them.
Sexlife was a bit bad in the end, thats true. But we could have talked about it, and sorted things out. But no.
Lost her feelings. hmm, Im not sure, or perhaps its an common excuse. Im not sure
Her eating disorder. Thats her main reason. She was getting worse, then I had to leave.
I helped her in the start. supporting her, trying to encourage her in her disease, and I think I did that.
During the breakup I was so stressed, and my knee disease eover 10 years came back. I had been okey for 5 years. But the stress trigged it back. I now dealing with surgery, and a long recovery time. I have told her many times that I helped her during this years with her disease, but when I need support, she just left.
My grandmother died just after Christmas, she was 100 years old. I was home to my mother and her a lot during that period. Supporting them, I have worked as a nurse in my past, so I felt I had to support my family and my grandmother during that period. I have told this to my X so many times that my mind was a bit off during this period. And that was one of the reasons I was not paying so much attention to her and her problems. But she don't listen to me. She is so firm and hard. I have fought like a lion this 4 months, lost 10-12 kilograms. Started smoking again. Living like a wreck.
Im so tired fighting. She is never coming back. Why did she leave me like this. Why did she not listen to my emotions and needs during this period.
Sometimes I feel that life is to hard to live. :(