My nan passed away in March if last yr and I still haven't come to terms with her death. I went to see her in the chapel of rest to say my goodbyes and I thought it would help me come to terms with it but nothing u have done us making things easier. I have admitted myself to grievance counselling and in the last 18 months to no avail.
I have also been seeking help with a spiritualist because I have always been able to see or hear the dead from a young age and yet as hard as u try u cannot seem to get any contact with her and I feel as if she is angry with me for not going to see her. The day before she died I said to my partner I was going to take the children up to see her. She passed before I got the chance to personally say goodbye and I feel like I will carry that for the rest if my life. I just wish I could have one more conversation with her :(