I'm falling apart
(Charlotte, NC, USA)
My spouse died on July 11, 2012, so I know I'm at the beginning stages of grief. I did fairly well at first--I was told that was the frozen or shock part of the grief process. Now I feel as if I'm falling apart. I have horrible panic attacks that come on unbidden. I feel I have lost all zest for living. I rely heavily on my son, but I don't want to burden him, as I know he has his own life to live. Each day is an ordeal. I pray for strength to go on and live a productive life. Have others felt this way? I've never felt such pain before, although I've had many difficulties to face in the past.