I'm losing my best friend
(Murrieta, CA United States)
My father is still alive, but we recently received notice that he has liver cancer, and the doctors do not expect him to live more than another month or two. Looking at him, I can see the once strong man that he was fading fast. Everything that had made my life complete is coming to an end, and I just cant go on.
I know, as a man I am supposed to find away to deal with this grief in a "manly" way. I am married, and my mother is healthy, but my world is falling apart. Never a weekend would go by where we would not do something together as a family. We would go out to dinner, catch a baseball game, and for me, just having someone to talk to is what I love most about him.
My father is 83, and I am now 48, so I am blessed to have had him for that time, but up until recently he was pretty healthy, so I believed that we would be together for a few more years.
I need some help, I really don't want to go on with my life with out him, what do I do? I know when the time comes to put him to rest I will be asking and praying that the good lord will take me too.