Im so Broken alone and depressed....and pregnant. ..
by stephanie elliott-mitchell
July 8 2013, my fiance died in a car accident he ran a stop sign and hit a Street sweeper going 80 mph.. Why?? I'll never know why but i go crazy trying to figure out why every day. He was my best friend my other half my every thing!!! We were supposed to do this together!! I'm physically and mentally emotionally drained I can't even function normally. I'm having good and bad days mostly bad but I'm so lost. I'm 26 years old he was 22. We just got our 1st home together in March. I've had 2 miscarriages this year which made him go depressed because he wanted to start a family so bad! I already have a 5 year old he was really close with but she lives with her dad and since the accident i haven't been able to give her much attention. 2 weeks after the accident i found out I'm pregnant now I'm passed the risk of miscarriage at 14 weeks which is good but I'm so depressed I have no help from any one and I cant do this alone! I'm going crazy! His family hates me and I just want to be close with them so bad it makes my pain so much worse. His mom is a **tch and he never liked her but now that he's gone she plays nice with me sometimes then flips out on me for stupid things and puts me down and calls me names and say if I mention his name around her I'm rubbing his death in her face? I dunno im just so alone i want him so bad I need him so bad I feel like I'm gonna be alone forever now ill never love again. Any man I meet will only be number 2, my secinf choice because brentyn my love will always be who i wish I was with forever. .ill never be happy again. ..