I'm so lost

by Donna

Yesterday 3-23-11 was one of the hardest days of my life, almost as hard as 7-23-11 the day he died. The day I tried so hard to keep him with me. I have been so numb the last few months. Yesterday when my youngest daughter and I went to the cemetary to change our flowers I begged him to please wake me up from this nightmare please. But its not a nightmare its the horrible new life that I been dealt. I don't want it please take it away, I want Bryan back healthy and happy again. I AM SOOO LOST WITHOUT HIM!!! But that will never happen. So I must go on without him at least physically. He will always be with me in spirit, he is my guardian angel now. He will be with me until I meet him in heaven. Until then, I am counting on him to guide me in everything I do, including teaching my grandkids about grandpa. I MISS HIM SOOO MUCH!!!!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!! one step one breath one day at a time

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Mar 24, 2011
We Miss Our Grandpa Too
by: Patti

God love you. I hear you loud and clear. My husband, my love, my soulmate is gone. I miss him so much. I hate this new life. I'm so lost. I just basically exist through each day. I'm pretty much numb to any good feelings. I try to pull myself up out of the darkness. My three year old grandson still says, "Where's pop-pop?" I'm dreading the day he stops asking.
I told both of my children we have to live our lives the best we can to make him proud. We have to keep his memory alive for the grandsons.
I keep trying....keep plugging along~
One day, One step, One breath at a time.
The pain never stops ~ I'm just praying for the ability to remember him and smile instead of crying for hours. Hugs to you.

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