I'm still stuck back in time 7 years ago and can't move on... I can't heal from the loss of my big bro
My big brother died 7 years ago at the age of 31 after fighting skin cancer for a year. I flew home the day after I got the call that the cancer had metastasized to his liver and didn't leave his bedside until he took his last breath 7 days later. The fear I saw and heard in him, and the daunting task of having to write his will and help him plan his funeral has traumatized me. I've lost every friend I had and pushed every one away since then and am just now realizing that. I can't move on.I have nightmares a few times a week and wake up crying having relived it all over and over and over again. I am drained. I am sad. I am lost. How do I begin to get healthy?