In Loving Memory of Tabitha K. Hansen

by Songbird Sherrie
(Broken Arrow, OK)

In Loving Memory of Tabitha

In Loving Memory of Tabitha

My daughter Tabitha, also known as “Tabby” was born December 13, 1981 and Gone Home with God on January 27, 2010. Not only was she my daughter, but my best friend, business partner and sister in Christ. We had a very close relationship! She had a passion for horses and was active and loved being outside working with her horse “Punch”. He is very spoiled and misses her so much.

In March of 2009, Tabby was dealing what we thought was pneumonia and it was not getting any better. After several rounds of antibiotics and several trips to her primary care physician, they wanted me to take her to the hospital to have some tests run. On June 2, 2009 I drove her to the hospital emergency room. They did a series of tests and admitted her as a patient. They found a 4x6 mass in front of her heart behind her sternum. That was so frightful, as we were thinking it was her heart acting up. They did a biopsy and discovered it was Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. They transferred to a sister hospital and started treatment for cancer. She was in the hospital for two weeks, and then continued out patient treatments for the next five months. She went in for chemo every three weeks for six treatments.

On October the 21st, Tabitha’s Oncologist told her she was cancer free. We were concerned because her symptoms were not so good at that time and she was getting worse. After a few more days, I called up her Oncologist and they stated that if I had any concerns to contact her primary care physician or take her to the hospital. I was so shocked with that reply…after all…she still had her port and was having some cancer symptoms and they did not even care. That was unthinkable! What in the world!!! So I took her to her primary care physician and she stated she felt she was not doing well…she wanted me to take her to the emergency room and that is what I did.

Exactly one week after she was told she was cancer free, we found out her first oncologist did not include her head in the PET scan and missed the fact the cancer had spread to her brain and spinal fluid! OH MY WORD!!! They asked me if I wanted to have them call her current cancer doctor or use one of theirs…I stated that I wanted a new doctor and was very pleased with her new Oncologist! They transferred her to the main hospital in Tulsa and she was treated like a queen by the doctors, nurses and techs at St. Francis Hospital! What a difference!

She was in the hospital for 13 weeks trying to fight this battle with cancer. She NEVER complained and captured the hearts of the doctors, nurses and techs. After several weeks of chemo and five radiation treatments, her doctor came in and stated it was not working and I told him to stop all treatments.

God and my daughter Tabitha prepared me for several weeks for her changes and new body she was fixing to get. She never lost her mind, but her body quit working and she was trapped in a body that quit working. She told me “that is not living Mama” and she prepared me to accept her new freedom and new body she was going to get.

I have joy in my heart for God curing the cancer forever…but I have sadness in my heart…I feel my heart was broken into a billion pieces! I miss my earthly relationship with my daughter. My life will never be the same. Some things in life I will NEVER understand and this is one of those things. The only thing that gives me Inner Peace is that God KNOWS and that is the ONLY reason I have Joy and Peace. I saw Grace and Glory through my Sweet Girl Tabby. I now know what they look and feel like. She was an inspiration to so many while on this Earth…she completed her mission God gave her while on this Earth and HE took her home.

Her motto was: “Taking Back the Reins of Life One Day at A Time” that is what I’m doing…taking her loss one day at a time and sometimes moments at a time. I will NEVER forget her and will always have a hole in my heart with her loss. I will honor her memory and try to continue the Light she was shining so brightly before Jesus took her home. I will let my love and light shine bright for HIM so I can be with HIM and my daughter in heaven forever.

God is so good and I praise HIS Name for curing her cancer forever! Lean on HIM and HIS understanding in this most difficult time. I love you Tabitha and I will NEVER stop loving you.

In Loving Memory of Tabitha…Mama Loves you Sweet Girl !

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Jun 10, 2012
I love you tabby cat!!!!
by: Deirdre

Tabby, I have been searching you for years! You were my best friend in the world since I was 6 years old!! It broke my heart when my family moved!! I never forgot about you!! I thought about you nearly every day!! And when I find you, you are gone!! I love you with all my heart tabby cat!! Love, dee

Jan 02, 2011
I Still Miss You
by: Songbird Sherrie

This has been a difficult year without my sweet girl. I praise God for taking her home and taking away her pain, but as a human...I still miss her so much. My life will never be the same.

Tabitha taught me a lot about God's grace and glory and about courage and faith! It was breath taking to feel God's Glory while holding Tabby's hand as HE took her home. That is one of those moments as George Strait would say..."Took my breath away". It was so peaceful and calm...I wanted to go with her...but my mission is not complete here on earth and God is not done with me yet. I long to see His precious face and then my daughter's again someday!

There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of Tabby. I really miss our chats and just spending time with her. We were so close and so much alike. We could finish each others sentences! My heart feels like it has been broken into a billion pieces, and then God finds a way to mend it again.

This is one of those things in life I will never understand, and that's okay as God sees in whole and understands completely what is best for our lives. That is the only reason I have joy and peace during this time of sorrow and suffering.

Even though she is no longer on this earth, her light continues to shine and touch so many peoples lives! Thank you Lord for the time we did have with her and thank you for watching over her now. Please continue to mend this heart of mine.

I know grief is like a wave...sometimes it barely reaches the shore...and sometimes it comes crashing down hard. When it does...I will lean on You Lord.

In loving memory of my sweet girl Tabby.
Mama loves you Tabby...Mama loves you!

Oct 26, 2010
Lost my Son to Cancer
by: Sandi

So very sorry for your loss. I lost my son, Ken, to cancer....It was Multiple Myeloma, the same family as your daughter's. Ken went to live with Jesus Dec. 30, 2009. I feel so lost without him. He left behind a family, a wife, two daughters and a son. Also, a granddaughter and a new granddaughter was born June 15, 2010. Ken is so very missed by me and his family.

I hope to get to the point of some kind of peace. Ken's went to the brain. I know that he is without pain now..and is happy with his God, my God.

Sandi Hardin

May 12, 2010
My heart is broken
by: Eric

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my 23 year old daughter and my absolute best friend when she died from complications from pregnancy. She was only 2 months along and when she went to the hospital the first time the report said she was "throwing up coffee grounds" and turned her away saying to her "it's just morning sickness". 3 days later she was rushed to another hospital where they found out her small intestines had died from a blood clot and a few hours later she was gone. She was my only child and she died in my arms. I feel your loss deeply and profoundly and my heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing your loss, this is such a hard place to be.

Mar 27, 2010
Sad
by: Amy King-Schroeder

I had no clue my second family from high school was dealing with this disease......I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for all. Love you all, even though I haven't seen you in forever.

Mar 26, 2010
Faith
by: Rhonda (Brandies Mom)

My daughter always told me to have faith, and when she went home to Jesus, I did have faith.. That she was free of her earthly body. I am so sorry for your loss, and I know how you feel.
What keeps me going is, knowing that God allowed me to care for his child for 24 years, and she was a true gift, to everyone she came in contact with. She was also a mother of 3.. one she was joined with after her passing..

God has given me strength and allowed me through all of this to see that life is so fragile, and we are to always have faith..

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