In Loving Memory of Tabitha K. Hansen
by Songbird Sherrie
In Loving Memory of Tabitha
In March of 2009, Tabby was dealing what we thought was pneumonia and it was not getting any better. After several rounds of antibiotics and several trips to her primary care physician, they wanted me to take her to the hospital to have some tests run. On June 2, 2009 I drove her to the hospital emergency room. They did a series of tests and admitted her as a patient. They found a 4x6 mass in front of her heart behind her sternum. That was so frightful, as we were thinking it was her heart acting up. They did a biopsy and discovered it was Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. They transferred to a sister hospital and started treatment for cancer. She was in the hospital for two weeks, and then continued out patient treatments for the next five months. She went in for chemo every three weeks for six treatments. On October the 21st, Tabitha’s Oncologist told her she was cancer free. We were concerned because her symptoms were not so good at that time and she was getting worse. After a few more days, I called up her Oncologist and they stated that if I had any concerns to contact her primary care physician or take her to the hospital. I was so shocked with that reply…after all…she still had her port and was having some cancer symptoms and they did not even care. That was unthinkable! What in the world!!! So I took her to her primary care physician and she stated she felt she was not doing well…she wanted me to take her to the emergency room and that is what I did. Exactly one week after she was told she was cancer free, we found out her first oncologist did not include her head in the PET scan and missed the fact the cancer had spread to her brain and spinal fluid! OH MY WORD!!! They asked me if I wanted to have them call her current cancer doctor or use one of theirs…I stated that I wanted a new doctor and was very pleased with her new Oncologist! They transferred her to the main hospital in Tulsa and she was treated like a queen by the doctors, nurses and techs at St. Francis Hospital! What a difference! She was in the hospital for 13 weeks trying to fight this battle with cancer. She NEVER complained and captured the hearts of the doctors, nurses and techs. After several weeks of chemo and five radiation treatments, her doctor came in and stated it was not working and I told him to stop all treatments. God and my daughter Tabitha prepared me for several weeks for her changes and new body she was fixing to get. She never lost her mind, but her body quit working and she was trapped in a body that quit working. She told me “that is not living Mama” and she prepared me to accept her new freedom and new body she was going to get. I have joy in my heart for God curing the cancer forever…but I have sadness in my heart…I feel my heart was broken into a billion pieces! I miss my earthly relationship with my daughter. My life will never be the same. Some things in life I will NEVER understand and this is one of those things. The only thing that gives me Inner Peace is that God KNOWS and that is the ONLY reason I have Joy and Peace. I saw Grace and Glory through my Sweet Girl Tabby. I now know what they look and feel like. She was an inspiration to so many while on this Earth…she completed her mission God gave her while on this Earth and HE took her home. Her motto was: “Taking Back the Reins of Life One Day at A Time” that is what I’m doing…taking her loss one day at a time and sometimes moments at a time. I will NEVER forget her and will always have a hole in my heart with her loss. I will honor her memory and try to continue the Light she was shining so brightly before Jesus took her home. I will let my love and light shine bright for HIM so I can be with HIM and my daughter in heaven forever. God is so good and I praise HIS Name for curing her cancer forever! Lean on HIM and HIS understanding in this most difficult time. I love you Tabitha and I will NEVER stop loving you. In Loving Memory of Tabitha…Mama Loves you Sweet Girl !
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