In my life - Loss of Parents, Brother, all grandparents, two ectopics, and a loss of a child meant to be
by Maryalicia
Here are my losses: Mom to a car accident when I was 12 years old. I was in the car - Lost her mother my grandmother 3 months later. One week after arriving to Germany my first duty station - Lost my first grandparent. Father to Stroke two weeks before my second anniversary at age 24 Brother (one of two) to Lymphoma cancer at age 28 Two children to ectopics (we were trying for children) when I was 32 and 33 Lost a Soldier to Suicide I was close to at the same time I was in the hospital having an ectopic - 32 At age 35 My daughter was born- 5 weeks later we are in the hospital - we find out she has a very severe seizure disorder with brain abnormalities - Aicardi's Syndrome. She will never be typical. A week after she is diagnosed- my last grandparent dies from stomach cancer. There have been other death's that touched my life. The loss of a fellow friends child (5) who I knew well. Acquaintances in car accidents, ect. And now these CAO duties. It is just weighing very heavy on me. People say I am strong, and I know I am, but I am human too. And it hurts to have lost so much and have to be strong for someone else when although I have not lost my child, it could be an option. I know I will get through it- but it feel good to write it out and share. MAryalicia One note- my daughter was a rare candidate for a surgery that has been successful (a little over a year ago) and stopped her seizures. This has been wonderful for us and we hope it extends her life.
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