In So Much Pain
“They” say that grief takes time, that the pain will diminish, that it will get easier, even if it never completely goes away. It has been almost six months, and time was, at first, somewhat kind. I was busy - - there was a lot to keep busy about, the services and the oncoming holidays. But, now is the most difficult and sad time yet. My body aches, and my mind doesn’t rest, and my heart bleeds. I sit and sob when I am alone, and it hurts so badly I can’t breathe. I am so tired all the time, I just want to sleep. I just want to be where where my husband is. I just want him back here where I am. He died in September - - a sudden cardiac death. I was so stunned, and am even more so now that I can barely function. He was 54 years old, we were married for almost 30 years, and we were falling in love all over again in our new life built for two. I still just can't believe he is gone. I miss him, I miss "Us" so much!