In so much pain
Hello - I'll try to keep this brief...I've been with my partner for over a year, we're both in our 40's. From the beginning he has long periods of being distant and evasive, but he was also affectionate and loving at times and talked about a future together.
Recently I became ill and was diagnosed with a heart condition. My employers also told me last week they want to dismiss me because of my poor health - I'm fighting this through my union.
Two days after this news, my partner ended our relationship. As background, his dad died very recently after a long illness and I know this has deeply affected him. I tried to support him through this, but he appeared to be withdrawing more and more.
I'm reeling from the shock of him ending the relationship so suddenly. We didn't argue, things were simple and warm between us, I did love him, although I was never sure if he loved me.
I'm finding this so hard to accept, one minute I'm feeling desperate and a crumpled heap, the next I'm desperately missing him and wanting him back. This is the most intense pain and I don't know how to get through, every day is like a nightmare and the nights are worse.