by Cynthia Jones
(Pleasant Hill, LA )
I lost my son it will be two years in August. He passed away on August 15, 2009. He had just turn a year old on July 2. Nothing in this world has hurt me the way that this has. I blame myself constantly even though I know it is not my fault. You always feel like maybe you could have done something different or you wasn't there when they really needed you. I know this is something that I will never get over I just have to learn to deal with this pain. He died in his sleep. Oh God this hurts just talking about it. I try to talk about the good memories to keep from thinking about that night. I wouldn't wish this pain on no one. I remember I tried to kill myself many times after this. I starved myself. I just felt like I couldn't go on without him. He was my everything my only child and I love him so much.