It Comes out from No where when you lease Expect it
I got blindside, it came out from no where...
Of all things I was watching a show ~ Terra Nova and the young son had that first kiss. His hesitation, wondering what to do, the excitement and feels overflowing at the unknown.
I sat there and tears filled my eyes. It brought me back to a evening long ago at 2:30am in the morning, Billy and I's first date sitting in the car in front of my place talking both waiting for each other to move. The slowest, gentleness and desire these 2 people on the show felt put me back to that moment and time.
Bittersweet memories, missing him again and wishing for something I can't have anymore.
Sometimes is just hurts so much. 1 simple loving act...
I haven't had the can't breathe, the pounding in my ears and my heart breaking into a million pieces once more in awhile. So I sat there, crying and waiting for it would stop. Of course it finally does, me waiting for the exhaustion of pain and memories washing over me to ease.
Other step falter but I will get up and continue in this world.
1 step, 1 breath at a time ~ 1 year