It has been a year but it feels like yesterday
Sharon was 3 years older than me. I remember just praying to God that she not die on January 25 only because my brother Jim had committed suicide that day 33 years prior to that and I did not want them to share the same day - why that was important I do not know.
Sharon and I lived in different cities and we really didn't talk much but every year on her birthday and Christmas she would do absolutely nothing until I called. She would wait by that phone and say to anyone that called I have to get off the phone my baby sister is going to call and wish me happy birthday and when I did she made such a big deal out of it. I learned that it was such an important deal to her that I tried to make a point of calling early in the day so she could go about her business. I loved how she made me feel so special when I called her. Birthday and Christmas alike she just sat and waited for me to call and that is why is was so hard for me to see that I got a call from my family members - because I always made the long distance calls - they never did. It always was a sure sign that something was wrong. I would never have assumed that something could have happened to my Sharon...she has my special go to person...I loved everything about her..she loved the simplest things in life. She didn't need or want fancy things..she wanted you and your time..and that was as it. and that is why I think I miss her so much. She took you as she found you warts and all...she had no need to change you..I miss her so much...and I just can not stop crying...like I said it feels like she left yesterday