Its a very painful loss
I can sympathize with everyone over the loss of their mother. My mom just passed away a few days ago, and the practical side of me understands that she's gone. All else says that I wish I could turn the clock back just a few months and do some things differently. Its just awfully darn painful, if I think about it. Fortunately, I can make myself very busy, and not think about it. It took me almost ten years before I could say my father passed away.