Its too much
My story has a few twists and turns, first off I am a recovering addict with a couple years clean. At about 18 months clean my husband of 16 years told me he was in love with someone elase ( via txt message ) then a month after that the dr. found a lump in my breast which we are still working on, in the meantime out of lonliness I tried to engage in a relationship with someone who is just as sick if not sicker than myself and that exploded on me, he also dumped me ( via txt message ) so at an all time low, my mother suffered a heart attack and was rushed into the hospital, while in the hospital we were told she was in the final stage of stage 4 C O P D, mind you I wasnt even aware there were stages of this ill'ness while all of this is going on another man that I have known for a very, very long time and for whom Ive always had profound feelings for came back into my life, I tried to fight it but I was vulnerable and sad so I got involved with him AGAIN ( he had broken my heart in the past ) then my mother was released from the hospital to hospice and made it two weeks and she passed. She passed away two weeks ago today, while at the memorial service for my mother the guy I was seeing was sitting with another woman exchanging phone numbers, then two days later he broke my heart again ( via txt message as well ) I have suffered so much grief and am so destroyed by my emotions that I feel like a lost soul. I dont even know where to begin to start this healing process. Im sad, lonley, bitter, angry and Im trying to survive my own deadly disease of addiction. Thank you for being here and allowing me to post.