I've lost everything...
Two days before this past Christmas, my mom was admitted to a hospice care center. On New Year's eve, the staff told us she was entering the stages of death. I stayed by her side without leaving for a little over a week. I finally needed to drive home for a few hours...my mom passed away 20 minutes after I left.
At the same time, my grandmother (my mother's mother) was at a hospital 2 hours away, trying to recover from pneumonia. I waited a day before I went to the hospital to see her and tell her that her daughter had died. Grandma was sickly, but very adamant that certain songs be played at my mother's funeral. Even though she couldn't attend, she wanted her service to be perfect. Grandma died the morning of my mom's funeral.
My parents were divorced when I was only 6 mos old, so my mother's family raised me. My mother didn't care for her siblings, so my sense of family was really just her and my maternal grandparents. My grandfather died when I was 12.
Neither my mom or grandma had been in the best of health before they passed away, and I poured all of my energy into caring for them and going to work every day. My relationship suffered, and as a result, my wife announced she was leaving me after I lost the other two people I loved most in this world.
I've never been so lost, hopeless, or sad. I feel..I am...all alone in this great big world.