Jamie Michael,My Love, My Life- ALL TAKEN FROM ME!
by Jess Peters
I can't express to anybody exactly what I feel. Cause I don't really know. I don't understand why Jamie had to leave me. Why this hadto happen to him. How god could take him so early. I wonder if this is my fault. If I wouldn't of had to go home. If I would had stayed with him. I miss him so much. We had are life's planned. He just asked me to marry him, we were in the process of buying a house. Planning a family together. His daughter,my two and one on the way. Not knowing at the time that this would happen...I hate crying,I hate been angry, I hate being alone, I don't want to live. I feel like I died when he did. He was my life,my soulmate,my best friend. I can't see anybody meeting up to the standards I have in Jamie. I can't ever love another. He has my heart and soul. My body might b here but not my soul or my mind.its been a month since he has passed and itstill hasn't sunk in that my baby is not here. Shortly after he passed I lost are unborn baby. The only piece I had left of him. Now all I have is memories and a box of his stuff. Its like a just threw him a box. I HATE THIS! How do i move on when its without him.Why? Why, HoW. What did i do for god to take him from me. My true love?;The man that showed me what love was! What am I support to do?