Jan 16th 2012- Cody

by Steffy Shobe
(Phoenix, Arizona)

I am 20 years old but I had found the love of my life.
Cody and I had been together 3 years before getting married. We got married on April 16th 2011 and are expecting our first child.

Our baby is due March 2012- Less then 2 weeks away from my due date and Cody will not be here to share that moment with me.

I lost Cody Jan 16 2012 it will be one month tomorrow.
Cody was shot and killed by Buckeye Police officers.
Everything is under investigation right now.

Cody was only 21 years old, he was full of life. He was the kind of person everyone wishes they could be.

I love cody from the first day i met him. He had an energy to him and he was always so thoughtful and understanding.

Cody was my best friend, my companion. My HUSBAND.

I am in alot of pain, Cody and I had so many plans, we had a great future ahead of us. He was so excited to be a father and now he will never get to hold his son.
Everyday gets harder with out him, im confused as to why something like this had to happen when him and I were so happy.

The pain is over whelming, Cody is on my mind all day.
I miss waking up next to him, I miss holding him and kissing him, I miss his voice and his beautiful blue eyes. Cody was my better half. He kept me strong,

I am so alone now, so angry at life, but I know I have to love for our son but it hurts so much

Cody was my rock, we were young and so in love we met before I started high school 6 years ago and dated all through highschool. we got married last april and we bought our first house. we were getting everything ready for our new family.

Cody was so special to so many people. His funeral was jan 23rd and it was packed. He impacted so many people with his personality and beauty.

I miss you Cody and I dont know what to do with out you,
I am going crazy, I want to be a good mother to our son but I dont know how without you. Our baby is going to be here in a few weeks and you wont be able to hold him.
Im sorry Cody I wish I couldve taken all the bullets life will never be the same. I miss you I miss everything about you,

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Feb 15, 2012
I know
by: Anonymous

I am so so sorry for your loss. I can just imagine how scary and empty life must be right now. It is sooooo hard to go through this! I lost my sister on the 15th very unexpectedly, she left behind a 4 mnth old and 4 year old kids. They say time heals all wounds, but right now it seems that every day is just getting harder!
You will be a good mom, dont worry bout that. It is so sad that the happiest day will be filled with sadness when the little one arrives, but be greatfull that you have a little of your husband with you in your son and that in his short life he left behind a legacy for his son to be proud of. Its important to use all the support you can get cause its HARD raising a child by yourself (I know) and because you have to deal with putting your life back together for the sake of your sanity and your son, you have to use all the help you can get. I am truly sorry, I know neither these words or the future means very little at the moment to you (I can hardly face the day let alone the night at the moment), but I read this which may help: when you feel you are drowning in life's sorrows, remember your heavenly father walks on water.

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