January and March 2013 - Two Goodbyes - one is gone the other is going
(Toronto, Ontario, Canada)
On January 8th 2013 my father died. He was my hero and I knew I was loved by him. He had a stroke Dec. 1st which left him paralyzed on the left side. I was told my the healthcare professionals that he could not swallow and he had a feeding tube which could not stay indefinitely, so it was removed, actually he pulled it out many times, but the last time was on xmas day and he stayed alive until January 8th. I watched my strong father get weaker and weaker and then leave.
Today I found out that one of my true loves and best friend has lost his battle with cancer and has, at best, 2 months to live. I have spent 23 years liking, loving, arguing, agreeing and disagreeing with this man. He was a boss and mentor a lover and a friend.
He was diagnosed with Breast cancer in 2001 and fought it so bravely for 12 years. He went through periods of remission, even long periods, but cancer is a sneaky disease and lurks about and so often comes back. It makes you wonder if it can ever be beat. Think of the vast amounts of money and efforts that go in to cancer fund raising and yet the outcome, so often and too often, is fatal.
I am so overwhelmed with grief and everything hurts. Sort of a dull ache everywhere. Super sad.