Jeannie and Mike
I lost my companion, it will be 4 months on the 19th of April. I am so lost, I feel like I will totally lose my mind, I cry constantly and so alone. I do have children that are wonderful from my first marriage but they are married and in college and have lives of their own and I can't expect them to stay with me and see me crying this much.
I feel angry that God took Mike too soon, but at least we did have 5 good years together. I wish I knew what to do with myself, I do work for my Dad but I have a hard time focusing on anything at this point. My son asked me to babysit my grandson who I love with all my heart and I had to refuse, I know I can't do this right now, I am trying to take care of me. This broke my heart and I just hope they can understand.
I am in therapy and on meds. I was already battling chronic depression before Mike passed and he was my lifeline. Now I have NO one, I am alone and this is harder than anything I have ever had to do in my whole life. I am 54 and never thought I would be going thru this so soon. I wish I could bring him back. Thanks for listening.