Jillian my eldest son n my youngest son xxx

by jillian
(brighton)

my eldest boy 32 years old was in a gangster drug world he couldn't escape he left he's sister and nephew home to save them from being harmed and next day dead an overdose ! my youngest boy 24 years took my daughters son ( he's nephew) as she fought these gangster people for what they had done but my youngest boy after 6 months unbeknown to us was suicidal and took he's own life by jumping in front of a train ! that was Monday and Friday my birthday pronounced he's self brain dead ! after 5 days watching my baby son with not a mark or bruise on him slip away and then to be buried on my eldest son who died birthday march 2nd x is there anyone else out there goin through the same as me ???? x

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Apr 02, 2014
6 yrs
by: Anonymous

It has been 6 yrs since I lost my daughter. They said it was an accidental drug overdose (cocaine) but I still don't believe them. It was obvious she did use the cocaine that is not what I question it was who gave it to her and circumstances of what happened. I will never know the truth of what happened and I will always miss her. It has changed my life. I lost my daughter 6yrs ago, my father 4 years ago, my brother to a hit and run 3 yrs ago and my mother last month. After my daughter died I became physically ill for approx. 2yrs. I was able to fight off the illness but it was very consuming of all my energy. The trials I was going through were very painful. I try to have faith and believe it is all going to be OK but I also question the losses and wonder how much more I can take and what is the purpose. I am not the same person I was before all this happened. I have to have trust in God but I am seeing too much hurt. Even my place of employment is no longer enjoyable. My parents died from terminal illness, my brother was murdered by a hit and run and my daughter I will never understand. I am doing the best I can and rely on the bible to help but I know I am not the same happy person I once was. I really want to get that back but I just miss my daughter too much - we talked everyday.....

Mar 31, 2014
What they would want
by: SoSadDad

Jillian, my heart aches for you. My wife and I have also lost two children, our daughters, to drug overdoses. And we are left with no surviving children. As you know, it is a pain that is barely tolerable. It's been four years and two years since they died, and often it seems like just a few days or weeks ago. Other times it seems like so many years. The feeling, for me, was that there was nothing left to live for, to care about, to hope for. But with time, you realize that they did not intend to hurt you, and would really want you to live! Grieve, and cry, yes, but honor their memories by living your life to the fullest. And while I questioned the purpose, and the character of God, I have come to accept His wisdom without understanding. And while I still ask why, there really is no answer that would satisfy me. Jillian, pray for peace and acceptance. We can't change things, as much as we would like to. We can only offer our lives as living testaments to the love we gave and received from our children. God bless you!

Mar 30, 2014
Your sons
by: Anonymous

You are going through a lot!!!!
No one has that hard path but we each have our own.
My son died from mixing coke and alcohol. Leaving my heart
Shattered and in pain. Only God has helped me onward.
You have just started a raw hard journey and there is shock pain sorrow and disbelief all mixed together. On here we do
Know the death path and hate it. Take one day at a time. Write, get the grief out of you. On here we do know and care.
I'm so sorry for the loss of two sons!!

Mar 29, 2014
your sons
by: Anonymous

My son 31 was involved in the drug world too. Its an awful place, and he spiraled out of control, and overdosed on Heroin. The world of drugs is a dark place, and addiction is a hard battle, and for most a losing battle. I am sorry for your loss of two sons. I know how hard it is to lose a child. I can't imagine two.

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