J.J. of Fort Wayne, IN
I lost my husband 4 weeks ago today. I am anxious, stressed and the pain is almost unbearable some days. Sometimes, I don't know how to make it to the next minute. We were together almost 40 years and he was 66. He had multiple health issues and died of a third heart attack.
it's overwhelming and as my doctor put it "you have lost part of you". It was 4 weeks ago today. December 14, 2010.
We never protected ourselves financially because we were money short and raised our children. I have a big family but no one seems to know or can even understand how horrible this is for me. I don't expect that, they couldn't.
I was always so sympathetic to friends and women who lost their husband. I knew that could be me, anytime.
He was a good man and wonderful family man, husband, grandfather and one great grandson. He was an amazing keyboard player and everyone knew it. People who were wonderful musicians spoke at his funeral and praised his ability to play by ear and play anything anyone asked for. He played in Fort Wayne with a band called "Sweet" and they were a one hit wonder with a song called "Love is like oxygen". Their keyboard player was in the hospital. He was asked to tour with them. He said no. That's not what he wanted. He wanted to remain with his family and play music locally. Fame and fortune was not what he wanted.
He was very funny, and you could not talk to him without walking away with a smile.
Part of my anxiety is money. Don't know I am going to make it. Reality sets in and we all have bills to pay. That's the way it is.
My tears, and sobbing come in waves and I don't know how to get better.
He loved me so much! I loved him too. I just don't know how to bear it. This is worst I have ever gone through.
Thanks for listening