Jon I miss you so much!!!!!
On July 13, 2011 I lost my oldest son Jonathan at the age of 26. He was attending School full time and working part time. He was to graduate this fall. He leaves behind his 6 year old son Jonathan with whom he had joint custody. His son was here in NJ spending the summer with his dad and extended family. Jon was not ill and this was so sudden and unexpected we are still in shock. He lived with his grandparents and when they checked to see if he was awake for school, he was gone. I am so heartbroken as is my husband and his younger brother. My cousin lost her only child and daughter at the age of 16 in a car accident 2 years ago and we have been by her side ever since. I guided her to the group Commpassionate Friends and we started a Scholarship Foundation in her name. Now this nighmare becomes my reality and this hell becomes my new life. I can't believe this tragedy has happened to our family twice. I would give my life if I can have my son back. Nothing can possibly hurt worse than this pain of never seeing my child again. I want to text him to come over and have something to eat. I miss him so much. All of the memories of my baby come flashing back as we put together those picture boards for the wake service. I can't even look at a picture now. We are starting a scholarship for my grandson who has been amazing through this. We have helped raise him like parents since he was born. He would not let me cry around him during the wake and during the funeral he kept telling us you have another Jonathan. He had me smiling at my sons funeral. He has to go back to his mother out west and now visitation will be interesting. We will work on a schedule but life will never be the same. Jon I miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!