I just lost my son, Jonathan, December 10th, 2010 and I am so, so sad, the pain is unbearable. Jon went into the emergency room the day before Thanksgiving with pneumonia and never came out of the hospital alive. He had complications including withdrawal from alcohol dependency and went into a coma from which he never returned.
Jonathan was only 39 years old and had 3 small children; 7,5 and 2 years old; children he will never get to see grow up, go to proms, graduate from school or get married and have his grandchildren. He always said he wanted to walk his 2 girls down the aisle and now he won't get to.
Jon was a kind, compassionate and loving person who had many friendships that have lasted many, many years, some since nursery and grade school. It touched my heart and made me proud to see the number of people that came to his wake and to see how many lives he had touched in his short time on this earth.
Jon's motto was "Hugs are Free" and he would give them out generously, even to strangers if he thought they were having a bad day. I really do miss those wonderful bear hugs and calling him just to see how he was doing.
I know my life will never be the same and it's very hard this time of year when everyone is so cheerful and I feel like never getting out of bed to face another day without my son. I know someday it will get easier but right now I can't even imagine a life without Jonathan.......