Joshua...my sick little boy...RIP 10/25/2009
(Cape Coral, FL USA)
Josh was my second son. He was born a very happy baby. But, at the age of 15 months, Josh was diagnosed with a severe, rare kidney disease. Josh was taken directly to a local children's hospital. While there, I was able to do shifts with my ex wife so that someone could be awake at all times. I was in the room and at 2:03AM, he stopped breathing. Luckily, they were able to revive him. As the years passed, Josh was told that he would have to go for chemo, dialysis and blood transfusions (bone marrow) to keep him going. In 2007, Josh had a kidney transplant and was very sick from rejection and other body ailments. Then, in October of 2009 while sitting at home at the dinner table, he fell down and was bleeding from all parts of his body. Josh was diagnosed at the home with a Severe massive brain hemorrhage. He was pronounced dead at the scene by EMT's. So, as you can see I am dealing with severe depression from that and I am dealing with PTSD and my family added the extra twist in the back of my body. They told me 10 days after he passed that he was deceased. No one called me except my youngest brother. Does this give anyone a sense of how I feel now. Been to a hospital with no help. Taking anti depressants now and they don't work. No life lines. Can anyone talk with me on the phone?