Judy From FL. Re: Living in the here and now comment
I just read you comment about the Love bugs in Fla. and how the Female holds on and flies with her dead mate attached until he drops off. That story really hit home.
I am trying to live MY Life, But with Paul being part of my past it is difficult to let him go. Somehow to keep him as a warm memory that I am lucky to have experienced. Trying to move on is still hard. Seeing other couples holding hands still brings a twinge of loneliness that all the projects on the world will not relieve.
There is one thing that I am certain of. When I yearn for him, I Know that I am not all together healthy enough to "Move on" to another man, lonely as I am...I am still looking for Paul in every one that I "consider". So alone I will be for now. Perhaps we need to take this time to enjoy our independence and individuality. We want to share as we did but since there is no one to share with, let us be selfish and a little self centered for now attending to our needs and wants. Yes we want what we can not have, agreed. But it is what it is and I hope that you and I, everyone who has lost the one Love that was the center of their universe can find contentment in this life. We all so deserve it. It's been one heck of a grief road we traveled. I am weary but stronger, Hope the same for you...