July 25th, 2012 The day my world collapsed

by Mallory

I am a 28 year old mother of 2 young boys (ages 2 and 3). My husband Travis and I were together 7 years and he was my soul mate. In June of 2012 my husband was offered this amazing promotion out to Las Vegas, NV for work. We decided to pack up our lives here in florida and start this new adventure. July 6th Travis and I flew to Vegas spent the weekend exploring and finding the perfect home for our family. He stayed out there for the next 3 weeks for work and flew home every Friday-Sunday to be with myself and the boys. Sunday July 22nd he flew back to Vegas and we said our goodbyes knowing on Wednesday we all would finally be together and as he said "the hard part was over". Wednesday July 25th me and my boys boarded our plane in Tampa and I called Travis with such excitement to tell him we would see him in 5 hours!!!!!! An hour later my husband passed..... He was at our new home unpacking the moving truck and suddenly felt ill. He sat down to take a break, lost consciousness and never regained it. He was later, during his autopsy, diagnosed as having hypertensive arteriosclerotic cardiovascular disease being his cause of death which caused an artery to rupture to his heart. My amazing, gentle, kind, hard working,loving husband and father was just 34 years old when he left us. When I landed in Vegas at the airport a man was waiting at the plane for me and escorted me to the USO office to meet Travis' step father who was out in Vegas to help us get settled. I knew something was wrong when this man was walking us through the airport but never in a million years could I have ever imagined what I was about to hear or how significantly my life would change in a moments notice. After I was told what happened I needed to go see him. I didn't believe that this really happened and I needed to go. I thought when I saw him they would be wrong and he would be alive in the hospital with his beautiful blue eyes shining at me and smiling with his big smile that always made me smile right back at him. I arrived at the hospital and was greeted by investigators who wanted to discuss what happened primarily because of his age and so on. Then finally I was able to see Travis, my soul mate, the father of my children and the man I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. He was all alone..... someone should have been with him. He looked just as handsome as I will always remember him to be. He just looked asleep, peacefully asleep and surely he would hear me talking to him and wake up. I held his hand and he was not his usual warm self, he didn't squeeze my hand back like he would have always done.... this couldn't be happening. Even know looking back it is like I watched this all happen to someone else. I am not crazy, I know he is gone but I still wait for him to walk in the door after work, for my phone to ring and it be him, to wake up in the morning from this nightmare and he see him sleeping next to me. Its been 74 days and I just don't know what to do anymore.

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Oct 09, 2012
Thank you
by: Anonymous

Mallory, I am so sorry for your loss. I look at your family picture and my heart breaks. I lost my husband of 30 years to cardiac arrest. Your story makes me thankful that I had 30 years with my husband and that my husband had the opportunity to see our four children grow up. Your loss has made me grateful in my grief, it has helped me put things in perspective. I am sure that my words do not help you for you are too young to be suffering such a great loss. It is very unfair to you and your beautiful sons. Just know that I appreciate you sharing your story. God bless you and your family.

Oct 08, 2012
The day my world collapsed
by: June

So very sorry for your loss...so hard to believe..not fair...why does this have to happen!!

I lost Mike, my loving husband, 7 months ago today and it still doesn't seem real. I still hope he will come back, but of course reality sets in. I'm lost without him. This site is helpful.

Mallory and children - there just isn't words to say to help you during this terrible time. So sorry.

Oct 08, 2012
the day my world collapsed
by: Ruby/canada

I am so sorry for you loss, you have 2 handsome boys to help you through. I lost my love 12 weeks ago on sat, my Birthday was on sun, i was just waiting for him to come up and give me my Birthday kiss. but thats not going to happen, I really don't know how i am going to get through it.you hang in there you are not alone in your grief.

Oct 08, 2012
Too young - too soon
by: M Mack


I am truly sorry you are suffering such a big loss so early in life. That picture of your family is beautiful and Travis is so handsome. I wish I can tell you everything will be back to normal for you but realistically I can't. The early stages of grief are horrible. I lost my soulmate July 23, 2010 and I still miss his love, his touch and everything about us. He always made me laugh instead of cry. My sadness and grieving went in circles - still missing him as i write. Take as much time as you need to grieve. Look at those 2 beautiful boys you have and know Travis would want you to be strong.
When I stumbled upon this site I was also a few months into grief. Like you I was searching for something - relief from the tremendous heartache I was in. There is a lot of support here and writing does help. Join a support group, take time for yourself, cry as much as you need to. Crying cleanses the sole like a good rain. Read what we have written, help others when you are ready and pray for strength. You are in my prayers. My heart goes out to you and your family.

Oct 07, 2012
July 25th, 2012 The day my world collapsed
by: Doreen U.K.

Mallory I am sorry for your loss of your very young husband to a sudden death. It is one of the most painfull experiences to bear in losing a husband.
I lost my husbamd of 44yrs. to cancer 5 months ago. He died slowly from this deadly cancer over 3 yrs. battle.
I still think Steve is going to walk through the door. I can't believe he has gone and never coming back. I expect the phone to ring and Steve answer. I visualise Steve a lot and see him everywhere I go. I can't shut out the mental images of my husband. It is a very CRUEL place to be. It is called "CRYING & SEARCHING." this is the first stage and it is all about searching for the one we have lost. A sort of DENIAL. I feel all messed up forever. You will find it hard to go on for some time now. Every day is difficult. Only TIME can HEAL us from this PAIN. I hope that you will be COMFORTED in your SORROW & GRIEF.

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