Just can't understand why..

by Mrs. Johnson
(Los Angeles, Ca.)

I'm still in shock over the August 19th 2012 death of my grandmother. She woke up and started preparing for her day as she always did then stated that she felt a little ill. She started to rub her arm and about 10 seconds later she said my heart hurts, I think it's my heart and fell back onto her bed. She was healthy with no illnesses except for mild hypertension but died of a heart attack! I'm truly devastated and can't get passed that Sunday morning because I just don't know why a person with no heart problems died of a heart attack. I feel bad because I told her the Friday before she passed that I would call her when I got home but I didn't get the chance to. I pray for peace and for me to be able to accept that I won't ever be able to call her back or go sit and talk with her and kiss her on the forehead and say "I'll check on you in a little while, call me if you need anything..love you ole woman" before I leave. In the last 2 years of her life we became inseparable. I love and miss her like crazy and I just need to be able to cope with her never coming back. I knew she wouldn't live forever but I also didn't think she would leave me so soon and so sudden..Lord have mercy!

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Sep 08, 2012
Just can't understand why.....
by: Doreen U.K.

Mrs. Johnson I am sorry for your loss of your grandmother. She was a very integral part of your life. It hurts because we won't be able to see our loved one's again. This is the hard part for us. We get up and get stuck into our Day as we are supposed to, not realising that for any one of us it could be our last. But it is still hard to live with the fact that today may be our last day. We just automatically rise to do it all over again. We would not be able to live with peace or fluidity if we were to constantly remind ourselves that today may be our last day on earth. How would I like it to end? Death is not something we like to think of. It just stares us in the face when we lose someone. All any of us can do is to just pick up the pieces of each day as best as we can and make the most of OUR DAY. If we can't plan it because we are feeling sad or lonely, we still have another day to try.

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