Just feeling Lost
Never married Rocky relationship for 18 years. 3 kids. I have had a stable Job the whole time. Been with him 1/2 my life. Very Dysfunctional. Was what i thought at the time LOVE of my life, I was so in love with him. I wanted him to just love me, I was very naive. He had a drug/alcohol problem, still does.I really wanted it to work. A lot of broken promises. A lot of cheating on his part. Trying to be strong, move forward unsure of life & scared to move on. Feeling lonely. Wishing it was easy & wondering after so many hurtful things, why it isn't easy to shut the door on the past that brought me so much pain...The great thing is My kids are happier!, I have a lot to work on. I just keep pushing forward, pray everyday to keep going. Something good has to come out of all this. My kids are amazing,& yet I feel I have failed them.