Just lost my older brother
My older brother passed away on 25 May 14. I received a phone call at 9:35 PM and my mom was frantic saying my brother was dead. We have not received an autopsy report yet, but I believe prescription drugs may have contributed to his death.
I have guilt, shame and anger. My brother and I did not have the best relationship. He refused to work and support his wife and kids. He relied on my parents for financial support over the last few years. I suspected he had a prescription drug problem. Because of this I could not respect him as a man/father/brother. Our relationship deteriorated and our communication was minimal.
I judged him, instead of just loving him for who he was.
Now, my brother is gone. I feel ashamed for the way I treated him. Why did I not try and help him with his problems? Why did I not reach out to him more? To make matters worse, I expected something like this would happen and I did nothing about it.
There is nothing I can do now, but learn from this. I'll be a better person, not be so judgmental and help those who are in need.
Love you bro