Just over nine months without my Sean Patrick
by Carol, Sean's mom
My hansome young man!
August 15th was the nine month mark for me. Depression has kicked in big time. I have become a sad,exhausted and just no life person. Seans death has crashed my world. I do not know how to even begin to start again. I am in a complete fog. I try for my two girls, we all struggle. This is an absolute nightmare. I never even thought something like this would ever happen. I took so much for granted. So don't others and they get to keep there children. I have always been thankful for my three beautiful children. I have always been one of those moms who talks about them constantly. Now I feel like no one even wants to listen. My relationships in this world have changed alot. My family doesn't know how to deal with this, how do they think I feel? Sean was such a part of who I am, I struggle to move forward. I am turning fifty in October. Sean would always tease me about being fifty. Now he isn't even here to be with me that day. He should of turned 25 on April 6th and we talked about him being half my age. I just miss so much. I miss him painfully. The pain in my body is always so bad sometime my fingers hurt. Every part of me is suffering this incredible loss. No one deserves this much pain....