I was married for 18 years we have had our fair share of ups and downs he has left me once before and then once I threw him out for one night. 4 years ago his father committed suicide and he totally changed. He became depressed and worked all the time, started a business and stayed away from me and our family as much as he could. About a year ago he was told they were laying them off and he spiraled downward. He became more distant and instead of trying to fight it I let him slip out of my hands. So to speak
In feb he told me he was Ieavimg me when he found and job and I thru him out that day. He left and hadn't looked back. 3 months in he came to tell me he was seeing someone and she wanted me to know before they went out. I started looking back at phone records and found he was calling and texting her right after he was laid off. He had been having an emotional affair for a year so he said. I still don't believe they didn't sleep together before he left me. It's been 7 months and he had gotten a job in another state and is still going strong. We have 3 boys who are doing ok with his absence but 2 won't speak or look at him at all. The third is hurt over his dad but he still sees him for the most part.
I' tried to mentally prepare for the demise of my marriage and did really well until I found out he had someone new and he told me she made him happy. And I made him depressed and the way he was.
I find myself not sleeping very much and then sleeping a lot. I haven't talked to anyone but I've been approached by several married men to be there, They must be insane and there my response to them.
My heart is crushed and I feel like I'll be alone forever
I read constantly and look for ways to make myself feel better. Nothing helps.