JUSTICE FOR VYLETTE! 11.28.11-12.03.11

by Vylette's Momma
(NYC)

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i wrote this while i was still in the hospital and added parts to the end in the following week
(http://www.facebook.com/justiceforvylette)

my absolutely perfect baby from my perfect pregnancy was murdered by the negligence of my midwives and doula from The Brooklyn Birthing Center in Brooklyn New York.

They delayed me for hours so much so that my baby was trapped in my birth canal and suffered lack of oxygen to her brain. they did not believe me when i told them my contractions were 2 min apart for HOURS. my doula was paid specifically doc one to my house to monitor me and tell me when to go in. but she failed me as well. they told me i was fine not in enough pain to go in. they said i could still talk so i wasn't in pain. i told them i was vomiting. they said no need for concern. it was thanksgiving weekend and no one wanted to break their vacation to deal with me. i wanted the most natural spiritual birth i could give my child but instead got the complete opposite. finally i told them i was coming in. i arrived fully dilated pushed for an hour. she broke my water and noticed meconium from distress. baby wanted to come out for hours but because of the delay she was panicking inside of me. there was definitely a good heartbeat. they made me stop pushing for 15 minutes! made me walk when i could feel her head between my legs even made me walk down the stairs instead of letting the EMTs put me on a stretcher! i listened cuz i was freaking out and had to trust them.. i arrived at the hospital and finally got to push. it was so hard to work against my own body.. sometimes i pushed cuz i couldn't hold it.. i wish i would have just pushed her out. shed be ok. i get to the hospitals and they're screaming at me to push saying I'm not working hard enough.. i struggle and scream.. the midwife spreads me open with two hands. no warning. i start screaming. a woman i don't know runs in the room and sticks her hand in too so i have 4 hands plying me open. I'm groaning wildly... finally they cut me vagina open like they should have long ago and baby flies out stiff. no cries. gray complexion. no cries. they smash my stomach brutally to get the placenta out. i screaming.. 12 doctors swarm around baby trying to get her heart to start.. she's rushed out of the room. i feel like death. I'm freaking. I'm sent to my room.. i finally get to see her. its bad. she looks like she's sedated but she just isn't moving. they resuscitated her and she's on a ventilator. she's hooked up to 12 machines in a huge room of her own.. the rest of the babies in the NICU are in another room. every orifice has a wire a tube a needle in it. they poke and prod her every 30 min to adjust her glucose. machines administer drugs to keep her heart rate up.. they keep her on a special cooling table that lowers her body temp to slow down her metabolism for three days. after 3 days they do a brain scan. zero brain activity. i had a perfect pregnancy did everything right. all her tests and mine perfect. they killed her. they took away her spark. she had tiny movements that improved over a few days so we thought there may be hope. after the brain scan i had to decide when to turn the machines off. i saw that her body and soul were finally at peace. i knew it was time. she was so beautiful, so perfect that doctors cried when they saw her. the priest cried. they could all see how rosy pink her skin was.. how supple her soil, how pretty her features.. they were so sad. the nurses would dress her up in little accessories. her name is Vylette Moon and though she was here for such a short time she was very loved by all who saw her. except the midwives.. they never spoke to me again. stopped all contact and ran me in circles when i tried to obtain my medical records they are evil.i was supposed to birth at the Brooklyn birthing centerthe midwives were ASYA PORTNAYA and YULIYA MILSHTEYN. i believe they are currently still delivering babies. it makes me so sick. i had to watch my child die in my arms. she would be a month and three weeks right now. my house is full of things i so carefully selected and requested for her. I'm so devastated and will always be. my boyfriend and i dont get along at all now, we're so far apart and i feel so completely alone. its been very hard but i am strong.. or at least i try to be. its all been doctors, lawyers, paperwork, funeral homes, collecting her remains.. etc. all by myself. its so hard. it gets worse every day i feel deeper and deeper agony of not having her.. everything is hell. my family is devastated. ughhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

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Oct 28, 2012
how awesum that you have found your angel now,she will b proud of her mummy! well done!
by: C H R Y Z L A H

As you say,u see her everywhere now,and she is with u always jast s.tht is rite.she is a beautiful angel helping u make the best life possible for yourself.through pain,we realize how strong we r.no pain compares to losing our babies suddenly.but if we rise up and make them proud of us each and everyday,then we can conquer all.I just lost my beautiful huuny girl who was 18 months old.she was our fourth kid,and totally the boss.she was teething with her last eye teeth and they were giving her hell.I went and brought paracetamol ova the counter at chemist.gave her some.next thing I no we r in hospital,with bacteria got into her blood from the paracetamol and killed her liver.she went in for a liver transplant that night, but at the same time it was eating away at her kidneys and other organs that her other liver was working hard to try n survive.my baby had to go back to theater 3 times n 3 days.her body gave up but her mind was. Still strong.we went to hospital on the 21.07.2012 & my baby passed over on the 26.07.12 in mine,her daddies her brother and 2 sisters arms.she is now our beautiful angel tht is still around EVERYWHERE! Skies the limits for our family now, & that is all possible coz of my hunnies. We have to remember to b positive always,get healing,read up on the angel books.u will b surprised,she we show u exactly which one she is. Just ask her to,she will :) I send my positive inspirational thoughts to u,and all my love.please take care,as I will too xoxoxoxoxoxo

Oct 17, 2012
im sorry
by: Anonymous

I understand... they killed my baby girl too. Somewhere else this happened but it still happened. I'm so sorry. It never goes away I wont tell you it does.

Jul 17, 2012
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by: Vylette's Momma

<3 I've been grieving and some days are worse than others. but that big storm cloud over my head with the weight of an anvil has passed. I'm so thankful that i can look to beauty in anything and see her there and become inspired by it, because she is everywhere now and all around me. a lot of days are confusing.. like why did this have to happen? and why isn't she here with me?
this is something i will have to deal with my whole life, and that is so scary and sad to me. but i can say proudly that I've come very far in the past 8 months.

Jul 17, 2012
really sorry
by: Karimi

I do not write much in this blog, but you have moved me. my friend lost a baby three years ago in similar circumstances and i have since not gotten over it. It is painful. I do not have one of my own but I can begin to try imagine what you must be going through. One day at a time. I can tell you at times it is easy to thrive on our pain. please do. Grieve and surely one day you will see better days

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