Justin, My Handsome Son, I Will Love You for an Eternity

My precious son Justin, only 21 years old, a new daddy of a 3 month old daughter was shot and killed on June 25, 2011. He and a friend were standing next to his car aftr leaving a good friend's birthday party. Some very evil people decided to come along and shoot at them. The young man that was with Justin was also shot in the leg but he survived when someone picked him up and took him to the hospital, however no one saw Justin who had fallen behind his car in the dark and that is where he died alone. This will haunt me until the day I die. The pain I live with daily is unbearable. This scenario repeats in my head over and over...the only relief is when I sleep, but sleep doesn't come easy. Justin was such a compassionate young man. Always standing up for the "underdog." Always helping his friends out financially, even though he himself lived a modest life. He worked hard and provided for his fiance and baby. Justn did like to party and be around his friends and for that reason, I prayed every night for God to keep him safe. I guess God had other plans. I recently read a quote that said "Some prayers are followed by silence because they are wrong, others because they are bigger than we can understand." How is praying to keep my son safe wrong? Yes, it's bigger than I can understand. Now I'm afraid to pray for anything. I can only try and keep going so I can be here for my Granddaughter, who no longer has her daddy and be here for my daughter and husbsand who are also suffering. If only we can be enlightened, but I guess that is not for us to know in this realm. I know I said I'm afraid to pray but I do pray that when it's my time to cross over, I will be with my precious son again, I LOVE YOU JUSTIN!

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Sep 19, 2012
Thank you Rosa
by: Anonymous

Rosa, thank you for your comforting words and support. I know you know the gut wrenching pain and I am so sorry you have to experience that as well and for the passing of your son. My prayers are with you as well. May God give us the strength to carry on for our families until it is our time to be called home and be reunited with our precious sons.

Sep 12, 2012
Justin, my handsome sonk I will love you for an eternity
by: Doreen U.K.

am sorry for your loss of your son Justin so suddenly. Grief is unbearable when we lose someone. Every day is a battle to go on with such grief. A sudden death is often helped with the support of a grief counsellor. I lost my husband of 44yrs. 4 months ago to cancer. I was his caregiver for over 3yrs. and it was hard watching him die slowly. My grief started the day he was diagnosed with this rare and serious inoperable incurable cancer. My world ended then. I just existed after this daily nursing him and doing my best to make his last days as comfortable as possible. I will never recover from this loss. I prayed for healing for my husband and at times he did get a healing and then all of a sudden he detiorated. I know what you are saying about praying. I sometimes think there is some special way to pray for healing and I didn't do it well which is why I am left with so much anger. God says in his Bible. Ask and you will recieve. I know it is according to our faith. I had Faith. But it didn't work. My husband died. My days are full of sorrow. I don't see the point to life anymore. But still I rise to live another day in sorrow. I actually sat by my husband's bedside waiting patiently with Hope for this miracle of healing. When my husband drew his last breath, I couldn't believe it. I felt let down by God. I know how you feel. I hope that in the days ahead that you will find good support from friends and family as this does make a difference.

Sep 10, 2012
I am so sorry for the loss of your son
by: Rosa

From one mother to another, who has lost a grown son. I know the pain you are going through. There is no pain like the pain of losing a child. A child that came from you, that you gave birth to, that you watched grow, that you fed, that you watched his every move, teething, eating, crying, laughing etc etc etc and to have had him shot to death and now have to deal with that loss is so so overwhelming, I know because the same thing happened to my son. He too died of gun shots and it happened in front of the house next to ours so now I not only suffer the pain of his loss but have that constant reminder of where he lay on the street dying. Why these things happen, we don't know & its not for us to know why and I have accepted that, now its just a journey to heal. Its not easy but with Gods help and therapy we can survive. I can sincerely say that I have walked through alot of healing & continue to do so. I still have times when it seems unbearable to deal with but I have learned how to deal with those hard times & I survive & will continue to do so until I see him again. My heart goes out to you & I will be praying for your healing as well as your families healing. Allow the Lord to carry you all through these harsh times and one day you will be able to really smile again and live till the Lord takes you home. If you want to talk more my email address is : garzas6110@att.net

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