Justin, My Handsome Son, I Will Love You for an Eternity
My precious son Justin, only 21 years old, a new daddy of a 3 month old daughter was shot and killed on June 25, 2011. He and a friend were standing next to his car aftr leaving a good friend's birthday party. Some very evil people decided to come along and shoot at them. The young man that was with Justin was also shot in the leg but he survived when someone picked him up and took him to the hospital, however no one saw Justin who had fallen behind his car in the dark and that is where he died alone. This will haunt me until the day I die. The pain I live with daily is unbearable. This scenario repeats in my head over and over...the only relief is when I sleep, but sleep doesn't come easy. Justin was such a compassionate young man. Always standing up for the "underdog." Always helping his friends out financially, even though he himself lived a modest life. He worked hard and provided for his fiance and baby. Justn did like to party and be around his friends and for that reason, I prayed every night for God to keep him safe. I guess God had other plans. I recently read a quote that said "Some prayers are followed by silence because they are wrong, others because they are bigger than we can understand." How is praying to keep my son safe wrong? Yes, it's bigger than I can understand. Now I'm afraid to pray for anything. I can only try and keep going so I can be here for my Granddaughter, who no longer has her daddy and be here for my daughter and husbsand who are also suffering. If only we can be enlightened, but I guess that is not for us to know in this realm. I know I said I'm afraid to pray but I do pray that when it's my time to cross over, I will be with my precious son again, I LOVE YOU JUSTIN!