by kate robinson
(durham united kingdom)
We got up as normal on the 27th feb this year, 15 weeks and 1 day ago to be exact, rob and i had been together 36 years , married the whole 36 years, we met and married the same year. rob retired early at christmas as i had had a stroke. little did i know we would have so little tiime left together, he was only 57, he went out to the car on the drive, to go the doctors because he thought he had flu. he got in the car and i notice it didnt go, so i went to see what was wrong. " kate i'm going to die" HE TOLD ME. I told him he couldnt die, i loved him. he said i love you too, and then he died.I have to stop for a minute. im composed again, this is breaking my heart writing this, rob had a dvt and instantly, i knew he was dead, and i couldnt save him. he was my world, im lost lonely and so unhappy, i dont know what im doing,i'm making stupid decisions, its as if the bottom of my world has fallen in, ive been cring for the past 15 weeks, and promise myself every day, im not going to cry, but the pain overwhelms me. I just want the pain to go away.