Kats and Dawgs

by Meggie
(Edmonton, Canada)

My best friend of almost 10 years was murdered by her boyfriend, she was only 24. The evidence against him isn't substantial enough without a confession from him to get a conviction. She was very loved among friends and family. Its been 2 weeks since it happened and I am finally letting myself feel... technically I'm depressed right now which I know is very normal. My friends and husband have been very supportive... without them I don't know if I could have made it this far. Her dog, which was there, really dislikes all men and is very aggressive and territorial at this time. She was like a sister to me, she helped me through many different stages of my life and I her. I miss her so much. When I found out I was at a loss for words... especially since her sister found out at the same time... I've been trying to be strong and tell others that its gonna be ok and that she is still with us not physically but spiritually, but when those words come my way they just seem to go in one ear and right out the other. I'm still living in the place that she stayed with me, which makes everything all that much harder, because everywhere I look she's there, cooking or on the computer, etc. I want her back, but I know reality is thats not going to happen. I see her before I fall asleep, and when I wake up, but I power through my day because there are things to do.