Keep the faith that what will be will be...
I have recently had a truly wonderful and meaningful reconciliation with my husband after 2-years apart - together for 12 years prior to that. I broke our relationship up and regretted it just a few months later and then endured total heartbreak and loss of interest in life for 18-months or so. I know that we are blessed and that we can stay together forever as we were meant to. We are lucky not to have betrayal or infidelity on the forgiveness list.
I wanted to post to offer support and renewed hope - if it is meant to be it will be, and though I would never want to spend 5 mins in that dead-zone I was in without him for 2 years I realise now that the time was essential to learn lessons both in life and on an individual basis.
I hope you all feel better soon - try to eat and sleep which is usually last thing to be considered.