Kimberly/ Gage's Mommy
My name is Kim & my sons name is Gage. He died in 2006. Just 9 days after he turned 3. I didn't beg GOD to save him. Instead , just before I gave my son a breath, I asked GOD for his will to be done. I did however , earlier that day ask GOD to please help me with him because he was so hard to handle on my own without his father. I sometimes doubt that prayer. I didn't want to be selfish & I wasn't sure if my son would suffer if he lived. I know GOD did not want him to suffer/ that HE needed my son more than I or The Lord felt Gage would be better w him. I don't know..
But what I DO know is that a few days prior to my sons death I felt that something was pulling Gage from me. I told my mother that I felt like something was trying to take Gage away from me. My mother said she would pray & she did. So did I......
Well... It happened... He was hit by a car & he died....I knew that something was going to take him from me...
With that.. I think it's why I didn't beg for him to stay on this earth.
Since that time, I have tried to move on, trading one addiction for another. I get through the day without killing myself because I know the pain it causes others if someone dies before their time. (Or before WE think its their time).
I know that one day I will be w my little Gagey Boy again.
So I thank GOD that he is using my son for his purposes. I know the pain of losing a son. I think that GOD has made a better place for him, as he also lost his son Jesus.
Please....don't get me wrong. It's been almost 7 years... I'll only recover when I'm called home also.
I think of Gage All the time. I never feel him near me.. I only know that he is near. I ask God to allow Gage to watch over his older sisters to protect them.
He does .
I struggle everyday...
Well, that's a portion of my story.
Thank you for reading.