Knowing you won't have a mum to watch you grow up
About 3 weeks ago my mum died of cancer and had been battling it for 11 years. She had mouth cancer, lung cancer and on the night she died she got bone cancer and the worst part about it is! That she was such a healthy woman and never smoked in her life just very unlucky :( Ive only just turned 15, I'm an only child I've got no family apart from my dad and ever since I've been a little girl my mums been sick. I don't even remember the last time she wasn't sick. My mum was actually my best friend she's been there for me every time I've needed her threw thick and thin and i promised her that id be there for her when ever she needs me. Ill never forget sitting in the chair by her bed for 38 hours watching her body go colder and colder sitting there watching your mum die slowly in pain is the worst thing you can ever experience as a child. I feel so lonely and practically like I'm left hanging off a shred. My dad has my mums mobile and he hasn't took that answering machine off yet and every time i call him and he doesn't answer it goes straight to 'Hi, this is Liz I'm not here at the moment so please leave a message and ill get back to you'. I just feel like saying 'Hi mum, can you please come back, i miss you not being here' but deep down inside i know she will never get back to me, never ever.