Thank you for your sympathetic and helpful letters,they were a great comfort to me.
The only good thing to come out of this nightmare was that my wife died in our bed in an instant,one minute she was talking and the next her heart gave up.
I called an ambulance and they were here in minutes and tried so hard to get her heart beating again,we rushed to the hospital at frightening speed as the medic in the back tried CPR on her but without success.
The Specialist told me if he gets her heart beating again she will be brain dead so I told him to let her die which she did in minutes.I saw her take her last breath,I kissed her and closed her eyes said "Goodbye Sweetheart" and that's what we were sweethearts from the day we met until she passed away. I never saw her again.
She was surrounded by her family who all kissed her goodbye.Mothers day this coming Sunday will be a hurdle to cross for my lovely daughters.
At the funeral I wanted to lie down beside her because we had done everything together,however I had to make do with reserving the next plot to hers so at least we will be together in death and for eternity.
With no hand to hold and no lips to kiss I ask myself is it worth going on but I know I must for my children and grandchildrens sake.