I took a further step today in my search to overcome the intense grief I feel.
I took my first visit to COSTCO alone. To say it was heartbreaking is putting it mildly. I visited all the sections we always did together and bought loads of stuff I will never use except for the Easter eggs I bought for my grandchildren.
We had many years of strolling around the huge store having fun and laughing never knowing it could end so suddenly, but I couldn’t bring myself to eat in their café alone, it was a bridge too far..
The final grim experience was on the way home driving on a road that was divided into two lanes, one for a car with two or more passengers and the other for single drivers; I had never driven in this lane before and I said out loud “I hope you are here sweetheart” as we always joked the only reason I stay with her so we can drive down the other lane.
I love her and miss her so desperately but I will continue taking small steps to try to overcome my anguish.