by Lawrence

I took a further step today in my search to overcome the intense grief I feel.
I took my first visit to COSTCO alone. To say it was heartbreaking is putting it mildly. I visited all the sections we always did together and bought loads of stuff I will never use except for the Easter eggs I bought for my grandchildren.
We had many years of strolling around the huge store having fun and laughing never knowing it could end so suddenly, but I couldn’t bring myself to eat in their café alone, it was a bridge too far..
The final grim experience was on the way home driving on a road that was divided into two lanes, one for a car with two or more passengers and the other for single drivers; I had never driven in this lane before and I said out loud “I hope you are here sweetheart” as we always joked the only reason I stay with her so we can drive down the other lane.
I love her and miss her so desperately but I will continue taking small steps to try to overcome my anguish.

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May 13, 2013
by: silver

Good for you.You are doing better than I did.My children are grown and I felt so alone in an empty house.I went our favorite place to eat on the 1st anniversary after he died(he died one week after the 33)I asked the waiter to put a glass of tea on the other side of the table(weird huh).I miss him so much but I am finally able to start going places we did together-one at a time.I still haven't given away some of his clothes.I didn't wash some of his things until his smell was gone.So don't feel bad if you can't do some of the things you did before.Let it come when you can.GOD bless you and give you strength

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