Letter for first mother's day without you
Dear Mum, I try to keep going without you.
All I can remember is you constantly vomiting and being in pain. Your beautiful face and large brown eyes were still there even when your body became too frail to move.
When I had my operations you prayed for me - little did I realise that weeks later you would be fighting for your own life.
Months before you died you held me and asked me not `to spoil things'. I now realise I am doing that by allowing the last weeks of your pain and suffering overshadow our beautiful bond.
For many my pain is yesterdays' news. You always wished I had a sister to be there apart from you. Maybe you knew how awful my loneliness would be.
Your only daughter and best friend
Thank you to all who read my letter and respond with their kind thoughts and guidance.