Letting go of 2010 and allowing 2011 in
I can be happy again
I am 2011 begging you to learn from my predecessor 2010 and congratulate you on your long ride with grief.
I know that you do not want to see me come, you think that you are not worthy nor capable of happiness. 2011 just spells another year of pain for you.
You will not "Just get over it" there is no magic trail to avoid the pain we have walked/wallowed through. I do ask you to take notice of the days that are just o.k. They will one day turn to days where you can notice the beauty that grief has put blinders on.
I will not wish you a Merry anything. We are not capable of such joy yet. Just know that it is there waiting for us when we are ready. And hoping that 2011 is the year that you grow into the person that you want to be.
The above picture is when I was happy Truly Happy and I want just a bit of that to make things seem possible.
Miss You, Love you Paul My angel. Continue to look down on me and give me strength. Boo deserves happiness and perhaps I do too.
Hope-Still your wife regardless of what social security papers say...