life goes on ,but its hard to move on , hard to go let go , dont know how to
its over a year since my dad died,
but one year has passed and im no nearer to finding peace in my self. in fact i feel worse, i thought in time i would be able to cope and remember and move forward , but sadly this hasnt been the case.
i have hit an emoitional block where nothing can get in and cant release the pain i feel within. im trapped by my own feelings . ive tried to make sense of it but cant just seem to be living on a roller coaster up one minute ,down the next ,am i always going to feel like this why cant i release the pain i feel inside to help me feel better .
i live as if in a void impervious from love ,over burdened with grief an pain , if there is a god why does he make me suffer like this.
i think deep down the only day i will find peace in my heart and soul is when i finally reach the place my loved ones are ,in heaven then all my heart ache pain an sorrow will leave me till then i will have to be strong of body annd mind to keep going from day to day , i think iff were all honest we think this way .
AS MY LATE DAD SAID ABOUT HIS LIFE WHEN HIS DAD DIED YOUNG,
LIFES LIKE A PHOTO GRAPH ITS OK TILL ITS BROKEN YOU CAN REPAIR THE PICTURE FRAME AND ALL THOUGH EVERY THING SEEMS OK DEEP DOWN ITS NOT BECAUSE YOU KNOW IT NOT THE SAME AS IT WAS BEFORE